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Saturday, July 5th, 2003
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2:40 am - I'm back
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Havn't posted in a few months, been kinda busy. What's new... hmmm... was dating a girl from school for a month... it was alright but I wasn't realy in love with her so I broke it off quickly, didn't want to drag it along, didn't want to hurt her, she was a bit in love with me and I didn't feel the same way so I cut it off. it's better to end things quickly before it gets out of hand... it would have been worse if I would have waited longer.
I had a taste of my own medecin: I was seeing this girl from work for about 6 months, just as friends, after I broke up with my girlfriend, I started going out with her more often... we had a blast, I thought things were pretty good... we were still ''just friends'' but people at work noticed we were going out and rumors were circulating that we were a thing. And yes, after a while, I started to have serious feelings about this girl. One night, she wrote me a long letter saying bla bla bla I want you just as a friend... I think I know what my ex was feeling a few months ago. It was like she took my heart and ripped it out of my chest and then shot it 1000 times to make sure it was dead... A bit dramatic but still.
So anyways, one of my buddies calls me ands says he's going to quebec city on wednesday, I'm like sure... So we go to Montreal on wednesday, to quebec on thursday and come back the same day to ottawa. today's friday, I'm beat. got a cold and have to go to work to the casino tomorow morning... shit.
Yeah so I don't know what else to say, I just had a few beers before coming back home, getting tired so i'll see yall later, peace.
current mood:  disappointed
current music: K-os - heaven only knows
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2003
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3:23 pm - School's out... Now what...
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So yesterday was the last day of school. NICE... I haven't written a word LJ for like a month or 2, I've been working crazy hours to finish my demo reel. It's done. Monday and tuesday were our exposition days, all the graduates in our program and in 2 others exposed their work in the amphytheatre. Our program had 4 big screens and 6 TVs to show our work. And yesterday when all was done, both classes in our 3d animation program went out to party in a local club... Like Whoa... I went to bed at around 6am and I just woke up an hour ago.
This is the begining of my future now, I'm done school for good, I'll be working full time at the Casino 'till I find a job in my field. And from what I've been hearing around, there is a good chance it'll happen sooner than later. I don't know if I'll stay in Ottawa or move to Montreal, maybe Toronto or Vancouver, maybe even P.E.I., who knows.
But for know, it's time to relax and have good times...
current mood:  accomplished
current music: fluke absurd whitewash remix
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| Tuesday, March 25th, 2003
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4:19 pm - Michael Moore slams GWB
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Haven't posted in a month I think, I've been really busy with all kinds of stuff. One of my friends sent me this letter, tell me what you think.
Here is the letter that was given to GWB the eve of the war.
Dear Governor Bush:
So today is what you call "the moment of truth," the day that "France and the rest of world have to show their cards on the table." I'm glad to hear that this day has finally arrived. Because, I gotta tell ya, having survived 440 days of your lying and conniving, I wasn't sure if I could take much more. So I'm glad to hear that today is Truth Day, 'cause I got a few truths I would like to share with you:
1. There is virtually NO ONE in America (talk radio nutters and Fox News aside) who is gung-ho to go to war. Trust me on this one. Walk out of the White House and on to any street in America and try to find five people who are PASSIONATE about wanting to kill Iraqis. YOU WON'T FIND THEM! Why? 'Cause NO Iraqis have ever come here and killed any of us! No Iraqi has even threatened to do that. You see, this is how we average Americans think: If a certain so-and-so is not perceived as a threat to our lives, then, believe it or not, we don't want to kill him! Funny how that works!
2. The majority of Americans -- the ones who never elected you -- are not fooled by your weapons of mass distraction. We know what the real issues are that affect our daily lives -- and none of them begin with I or end in Q. Here's what threatens us: two and a half million jobs lost since you took office, the stock market having become a cruel joke, no one knowing if their retirement funds are going to be there, gas now costs almost two dollars -- the list goes on and on. Bombing Iraq will not make any of this go away. Only you need to go away for things to improve.
3. As Bill Maher said last week, how bad do you have to suck to lose a popularity contest with Saddam Hussein? The whole world is against you, Mr. Bush. Count your fellow Americans among them.
4. The Pope has said this war is wrong, that it is a SIN. The Pope! But even worse, the Dixie Chicks have now come out against you! How bad does it have to get before you realize that you are an army of one on this war? Of course, this is a war you personally won't have to fight. Just like when you went AWOL while the poor were shipped to Vietnam in your place.
5. Of the 535 members of Congress, only ONE (Sen. Johnson of South Dakota) has an enlisted son or daughter in the armed forces! If you really want to stand up for America, please send your twin daughters over to Kuwait right now and let them don their chemical warfare suits. And let's see every member of Congress with a child of military age also sacrifice their kids for this war effort. What's that you say? You don't THINK so? Well, hey, guess what -- we don't think so either!
6. Finally, we love France. Yes, they have pulled some royal screw-ups. Yes, some of them can be pretty damn annoying. But have you forgotten we wouldn't even have this country known as America if it weren't for the French? That it was their help in the Revolutionary War that won it for us? That our greatest thinkers and founding fathers -- Thomas Jefferson, Ben Franklin, etc. -- spent many years in Paris where they refined the concepts that lead to our Declaration of Independence and our Constitution? That it was France who gave us our Statue of Liberty, a Frenchman who built the Chevrolet, and a pair of French brothers who invented the movies? And now they are doing what only a good friend can do -- tell you the truth about yourself, straight, no b.s. Quit pissing on the French and thank them for getting it right for once. You know, you really should have traveled more (like once) before you took over. Your ignorance of the world has not only made you look stupid, it has painted you into a corner you can't get out of.
Well, cheer up -- there IS good news. If you do go through with this war, more than likely it will be over soon because I'm guessing there aren't a lot of Iraqis willing to lay down their lives to protect Saddam Hussein. After you "win" the war, you will enjoy a huge bump in the popularity polls as everyone loves a winner -- and who doesn't like to see a good ass-whoopin' every now and then (especially when it 's some third world ass!). So try your best to ride this victory all the way to next year's election. Of course, that's still a long ways away, so we'll all get to have a good hardy-har-har while we watch the economy sink even further down the toilet!
But, hey, who knows -- maybe you'll find Osama a few days before the election! See, start thinking like THAT! Keep hope alive! Kill Iraqis -- they got our oil!!
Yours,
Michael Moore
current mood:  busy
current music: Matthew Good IN A WORLD CALLED CATASTROPHE
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| Saturday, February 22nd, 2003
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3:02 am - In Da Club
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Just came back from a club. It was alright, I know the people at the door so we didn't have to wait in line. The line was pretty bad. I gotta precise that this was a young Hip Hop club. Jiggas are not patient at all. About 45 mins after we got in, some idiots started throwing 40s at the widows from outside... started kicking and busting up the glass walls, about 5 cop cars arrived to try and stop all the stupid shit. I usually go to another <> club and nothing happens, everything is all gravy. The difference is that 18-19 year old kids are wannabe gagnsters... At one point I thought somebody was going to pull out a gun. My usual club, the average age is 23-24... nothing ever happens, it's the same music, same type of people but everything stays cool. Kids now days are fuckin' crazy, they think that there in a gangsta movie or video type shit. Anyway, I'm not going back to that club again.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: 50 cent - in da club
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| Thursday, February 13th, 2003
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2:38 am - War
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War this war that, fucking war, power hungry politicians haven't learned anything from th past.
I gotta admit, I feel worried sometimes. First, I live 10 mins from the Parliament (Canadas White House) in Ottawa. Living in a big city is worse than living in a rural area for sure. Who would nuke a village when you could have a 1000 times more carnage bombing a big city. I'm not trying to scare anybody, it's just logical. Another thing... we can't live in ignorance... I'm lucky enough to have a father that is a history/philosophy teacher. We watch the news and documentaries together and talk about all the shit that's going on in the world.
P.S.: American and Canadian news are totaly different. We have both up here and I'm sorry to say but what I see on CNN, NBC, ABC, etc is very tabloidish, all hyped up just to get the ratings it seems.
Micheal Moores film just poped up in my head... Bowling For Columbine... very interesting, you should all check it out.
Anyways, I think we're living in an untouchable bubble of fear and ignorance fed by the governement so that the elite get richer and the rest of the world gets fucked up the ass. All the wars in the world are led by only a few greedy people but millions of innocent people die and suffer in the process. I could go on and on but I'll stop for today.
current mood:  pensive
current music: Cold Play - Trouble
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| Wednesday, February 12th, 2003
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3:10 am
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So it's a no go for the appartement that I was checking out in Mtl. The chick that was going to move out decided to renew her rent for another year. Oh well, guess I'm going to have to find somewhere else to live.
My social life is really low key right now... I'm in school every night 'till midnight working on my project. Supposed to go to Toronto for the weekend with my friends, go party at Vince Carters Club... but I'm broke. All the money that I'm earning at the casino goes to pay my car. Sometimes I wish I only had a cheap Hyunday Accent so that I would'nt be so tight with my cash.
current mood: blah
current music: Nelly Swollen Members - Breath
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| Wednesday, February 5th, 2003
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1:51 am - GO TIME
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Things are going pretty good. I'm starting to get some answers to questions and situations I'm in right now. In school, our program coordinator decided that our demo reel is going to count for 100% of the mark... in all of our class, that meens its do or die, my demo's got to be the shit. My apartement search is going well... I've visited a few places in Montreal last friday... yesterday I got a call from a friend telling me that in his brothers building (newly built) there will be a good spot free this spring. That apartement is in a sweet spot... downtown Mtl. 2mins walk from the metro, 2mins car drive to the highway... it would be perfect for me right now. Work wise, I asked one of my supervisors at the Casino if I could get transfered to the Montreal Casino. She said she thinks that there would be no problem. Plus, one of my teachers in school said he could get me a job in 3d in one of the studios there. All'n all, it's getting closer to go time... a lot of stuff is happening at the same time and I gotta be focused coz I could just as easily lose these opportunities.
current mood: determined
current music: Dido Hunter
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| Saturday, February 1st, 2003
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5:50 am - Whoa, long day
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I'm to tired to wright. Just finished my shift at the Casino, they called me to come in tonight. I was up since 6am, and arrived in Montreal at 9am. I was in Mtl when they called on my cell. We had to leave a little earlier to be back in Ottawa in time so I could start my shift. Finishing at 430 am is killer. I won't be in bed at 'till 6am. Euuuhhhh, ok, that's it... peace. (Head knocking on the keyboard)
current mood:  drained
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| Thursday, January 30th, 2003
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11:36 pm - Time passes
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The weeks are going by so fast, it's crazy. I've been busy with school. I'm going to Montreal tomorow again, try to find somewhere to live. Can't wait to have my own space... I think I say that a lot, not sure. Saw the 25th hour this week, a Spike Lee joint... pretty good flick, the movie seemed to drag a bit but overall good.
The months of Jan. & Feb. seem to be hard on a lot of people... Some kids in my class are serioulsy depressed, almost crying in class... they're 18-19(not all, some) and woried about their future, about what their parents will think... all types of shit. I try to tell them to just ride the wave, go with the flow, not get caught up in your own misery and do something about it, have a plan B or C. Take me for instance, I'm 24, I've done 3 post secondary programes after high school and I still manage to hang on... All my friends have their apps/condos/houses but do they really like their jobs??? Ya know what I meen, don't rush in to things you'll regret later. I think people don't realize that if you want to do something you like, you gotta go threw a lot of shit you don't like. Am I right or... That's what I think anyways
Enough for today, later.
current mood: determined
current music: Sean Paul Get Busy
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| Monday, January 27th, 2003
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4:34 am - Fucking Work!!!
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It's almost 4:30am right now and I just got off work (Casino).
Today was supposed to be a chill day. Superbowl sunday with some friends, downing a couple of beers, pizza, nachos, all that shit. Ahhhhhh..... no.
I woke up late this morning/after noon...needed the rest. Had breakfast with the familia, then did a couple things around the house, before you know it, it's 5:30 and my buddies are calling me to come to the superbowl party. Hop in the car, get a 12 of Heinies at the store, get to my friends app and start drinking. Nothing crazy, just a night with the boys watching the game. My fuckin' cell phone rigns, I know it's the Casino coz it's a private number on my caller ID. I'm screaming... fuck... not tonight... I've been here for an hour and these fucks want me to come to work... FUCK!
So I answer.
-Yeah Fernando, it's BobFuckFace (My Boss), you gotta come in to work.
-I'm kinda watching the game right now. (I know he doesn't give a shit)
-The game is playing here too (you gotta be fuckin' joking)
(((So I'm thinking, and thinking.... I gotta go coz if I refuse to many times, they can just fire my poor ass, I can't have that)))
-I'll be there for 7:30, click. FUUUUCCKK!
So I go in to work half drunk, furious as fuck, oh and hungry as a mofo coz I only had breakfast today, didn't even get a slice of pizza before I left the party coz it wasn't ORDERED YET!
Oh yeah, don't forget, I've got class at 8am tomorow... I'm thinking.... Ahhhhhh... no
So kids, how was your day, mine was fuckin' great.
current mood:  enraged
current music: computer noises
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| Saturday, January 25th, 2003
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4:16 am - Good old college days
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Before I started the 3d animation programme, I was in a computer graphics (pre-presse) programe at the same college. Those 2 years were lots of fun... We had a small tight class.We used to party together, cram together, all types a shit you know. Now, it's not the same, all the kids are young, 17-18ish, I'm 24, we don't have the same kinda of goals, motivations, you get the picture, we don't mesh quite well. Anyways, that's not the point. The point is that today I hooked up with some people from my previous programe... I haven't seen them in 2 years. We had our little reunion at Maxs ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) skichik place. Max and I chatted on MSN for some time but we nerver had the chance to see each other 'till 3 weeks ago, she's the one that introduced me to LJ. We (the gang) had a couple of good laughs, it was fun... we should all hook up more often for sure.
Can anybody say goodtimes... GOODTIMES!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: American Booty - Jakatta
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| Friday, January 24th, 2003
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10:51 am - Arrg%*#@!
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12:57 am - 3d images
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Here are 2 projects I've worked on last semester at school. The first had to be a game character model with a max of 3000 polys. The second, an animal with no poly limit. Tell me what you think.
Hope you can see the images, if not, I'll try again.
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| Thursday, January 23rd, 2003
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11:13 pm
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Yeah, ummm, today was a pretty good day. I'm a bit sore from last nights workout, good sore though... feel those muscles working you know.
Going to Montreal tomorow... driving my sister so she can hand in her admission papers for l'Universit? de Montr?al. I'm going to start looking for a job in my field (3d games/architecture/special effects/tv). Montreal is great for that kind of stuff. It's a 2 hour drive... not that bad. I only hope the Casino (work) doesn't call me to come in. I work on weekends, I have to be available 24/3 (fri, sat, sun) pretty much... that sucks. Sucks that I have to come back the same day, Montreal is the party capital of Canada. Nightlife is crazy. Reminiscing about all the road trips to the Big O(Mtl) my friends and I took when we were younger. Can anybody say goodtimes... GOODTIMES!
current mood:  mellow
current music: Matthew Good Band - Fated
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| Monday, January 20th, 2003
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8:26 pm - I see the light
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Today was a good day... long but good. Like I said this morning, I'm in 3d animation... People in my program, including me, are stressed cause we have to produce a 2 min. Demo Reel for the end of march, A Demo Reel is like a mini-movie in 3d that is used by artists to get a job basically. It's like a movie trailer that shows the best stuff we can do. Not only we have to do a demo in the next 2 months, each one of us has to find a company that will take us in for our coop program in April. I live in our nations (Canada) capital, Ottawa. In Ottawa there are only 2-3 companies that do 3d animation... Montreal, Toronto and Vancouver are the places to be for 3d, but those cities are not around the corner. Companies normaly need a 6 month notice if you're interested in doing a coop, and they demand a demo. Like I said, our demos'll be ready in 2 months... We're kinda in a predicament. However, today, we had our first class on the reel world/marketplace. I was expecting it to be useless... on the contrary, I was happily suprised. The teacher had a lot of reel life experience. She was motivating, a reel Tony Robbins. She said she would help us out networking. That gave me the boost I needed, All'n all, it was a good day. I'll post a few pics of stuff I worked on the past few months. Peace for now.
current mood: determined
current music: Busta Make It Clap (Remix)
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7:20 am - Never ending cycle
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A lot a people say that high school and college are the best years of our lives. If they are, real 9 to 5 life has gotta suck... yeah right. I'm in 3d animation in school right now, this is my last semestre and I can't wait 'till I graduate and get a stable 9 to 5 job. The past few years I've been working crazy hours at the Ottawa Sun (News Paper) and now at the Casino de Hull, while in school. I don't wanna complain, my life is pretty good, a lot of oppotunity, but damn, I need some time off, like a one month vacation or something. Anyway, gotta go, class in 45 mins. Thats how it is right now, work, school, work, school and if I can get a couple of hours of sleep, that's a bonus. Peace
current mood: awake
current music: 50 cent - In the Club
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| Sunday, January 19th, 2003
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3:06 am - First entry
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So this is how I'm a start this thing. It's 3 am right now, I'm going to bed, peace.
current mood: tired
current music: Danni Minogue-Put the needle on it
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